Unable to focus on Tarot in a new environment
Thread originally posted on the Aeclectic Tarot Forum on 10 Jun 2005, and now archived in the Forum Library.
||10 Jun 2005 |
I joined these boards just over a month ago, now, while I was at college and had just started studying Tarot. My plan was to learn one card each day until I had learned each (my self-introduction was here http://www.tarotforum.net/showthread.php?p=535662#post535662).
Now I've moved back home to my parents' house for the summer, and I can't bring myself to study here. I lose the ability to focus and study my cards; in fact, most times I don't even feel like picking up the deck. (And, thus, haven't, as I don't want to learn the Tarot with a half-desire) At the same time, though, I still want to learn, and I feel this time at home is a setback in my path. Although my childhood wasn't bad, there has been a good deal of stress in this house over the past 22 years of my life here. Plus, my only being here for two months in the summer makes my existance in this house seem rather transitory at the moment, like I don't completely belong here. I discussed it with my best friend, and he thinks that from what I described in much more detail with him that perhaps my home is filled with some negative or chaotic energy.
The reason I bring this up to the boards is two-fold:
- Does anyone think that this could actually be the case? Has anyone had experience with a place that just wouldn't work for studying and channelling when studying the Tarot?
- Does anyone have any suggestions for me? Be it energy-clearing, mind-clearing, or otherwise. I am open to any and all suggestions (though that doesn't mean I'll ATTEMPT any and all suggestions, hehehe)
||10 Jun 2005 |
|Vraiment: We tend to be creatures of habit. The sense of comfort in any environment is subjective & related to the means to adapt or circumvent conditions. The "problem" could be atmospheric &/or due to the acquired associations. |
That is, if the experience with a particular environment has historically been stressful, not conducive nor encouraging of private time or space, that could hinder the focus & interest. & especially if there is no place or private room to create personal/sacred space. A busy household or clutter can contribute to a sense of alienation & discomfort. Likewise the transitory status as there is no real sense of belonging.
If ye have your own bedroom, that can be a place for study, such as setting aside a specific time or a block of time for the pursuit. It may be a matter of rearranging the furnishings in your room to create a more harmonious atmosphere; using aromatherapy (candles, incense) or music to block out background noise.
Necessity is oft the mother of invention.
For example, since my work schedule tends to fluctuate & extend into long hours, there is oft little leisure time at home. I use the work breaks & lunches to get in some private time to read books, see to correspondence or do Tarotwork. Regular periods of meditation assists in the centering & grounding which contribute to creating calm & focus; also the private space apart from all else. Whence my family was younger, I oft "escaped" into a bathroom for quiet time. That was usually the one place I could be relatively assured of little disturbance or interruption (having two bathrooms helped) & I still do that now. That my hubby has always been supportive of my personal space also helps. He would run interference & not let the kids nor the phone intrude (though my kids are famous for trying to hand me the phone in the bathroom). Or I work outdoors--physical activity is also grounding & can assist towards the perspective.
Hence, experiment & see.
||10 Jun 2005 |
|Maybe try a coffee shop or some comfortable place. If you don't have you book or cards drawing too much attention, there shouldn't be a problem. Good luck in your studies.|
Maybe try a new book that talks about the cards in a leisurely way?
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