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Merry Meet! I need to devise a reading/spread for a particular situation. I'm not entirely sure what questions I should include. The situation was complex and complicated with many "layers".
There was a time when my husband and I were going through a rough patch. We worked things out and we're stronger together now because of it. We learned a lot about ourselves and about other people. At the time of this bump in the road, we were going to file for divorce. At that time, I dated a man. Let's call him Jean. I fell head over heels in love with Jean, however, our relationship didn't end up meeting my expectations and it didn't last long. It turned out that Jean was an abusive, indecisive, schizoaffective (that's schizophrenic + bipolar) and unstable meth head. Things deteriorated rather quickly as Jean lost touch with reality and binged on meth. He stole a lot of my intellectual property, without my consent and without giving me any credit. I severed off all contact with him. He harassed me through my job. He killed himself in August. The really creepy thing is that I've known Jean in every single life that I've ever lived. He's always been obsessed with and fixated on me. His name always starts with the letter J and his life always ends by means of suicide. After killing himself (this time), he started haunting me and possessing my husband. After a full paranormal investigation, we had hours worth of recorded EVP's of Jean. It was clearly him. It was his voice and his accent. We were successfully able to banish him from our lives. Yet, some of the feelings I have because of the abuse still linger. Sometimes, I have a hard time accepting that Jean is dead. I'll Google him. It's like, I'm expecting to find that he's posted something online, but he hasn't, not since the day before he committed suicide. To the best of my knowledge, deceased people don't text or Tweet. Both of the phone numbers for his business have been shutoff. However, I've learned a great deal about the kind of person he was. He had fathered numerous children and was a dead-beat dad. He had many aliases. He had a criminal record. His IP addresses were blacklisted all over the internet. He was married, which was news to me. Many of his associates were drug addicted prostitutes. He believed that he was a time traveller. Yet, still, I'm having a hard time accepting that he's gone. The abuse, it really messed with my head. I'm a very happy person and I still am, but I've been feeling vulnerable due to the abuse and Jean's suicide. It's like, I want him to be alive so that he'll tell me the truth so that I'll have closure.
It's been taking me a while to heal from the abuse and Jean's suicide, especially because I've not had closure. I feel slightly disillusioned and resentful. I want this reading to help me find closure. I want to completely let go and move on, but I feel like karma is keeping me "tied" to Jean. I'm not entirely sure what questions to ask nor what to focus on. I have many ideas, though. Should the focus be on me and my feelings... Why the abuse effected me and how to heal... Jean's character... Why I'm having a hard time letting go/moving on and what actions to take... All of the above? Does anyone have any ideas?
Here are some possible questions that I can think of:
What was the lesson that I was meant to learn?
What were my unconscious desires?
What were J's unconscious desires?
What was hidden?
What was J hiding from me?
What were my greatest hopes and fears?
What were J's greatest hopes and fears?
Was I being indecisive?
Was J being indecisive?
Why was J abusing me?
How did I see J? Was my view realistic?
How did J see me? Was his view realistic?
What were my motives?
What were J's motives?
Did J have ulterior motives? What were they?
What were the consequences?
How did I feel about J?
How did J feel about me?
What should I avoid?
What were the negative influences?
Why was I disappointed?
What were the underlying influences?
What needs to be clarified?
What should I look out for?
How can I move on?
How can I let go?
What actions need to be taken?
What needs to be left in the past?
What should I take from the past?
What was at the heart of the situation?
What was the challenge?
What karmic/past-life lessons need to be applied here?
What didn't I see before? What was I missing?
What became apparent with hind-sight?
What were the unseen truths?
What unseen elements was I blind to?
What did I desire, yet not express?
What did J desire, yet not express?
Did my desires express themselves unhealthily?
Did J's desires express themselves unhealthily?
How could I have expressed my desires in ways that were healthy?
How could J have expressed his desires in ways that were healthy?
Why did J commit suicide?
Did J find peace in the end?
Why did J haunt me and possess my husband?
What was J attempting to achieve by all of this?
Why has J been fixated on and obsessed with me?
Why did J steal my intellectual property?
Should I sever off all karmic ties to J?
Was I right to leave J and sever off all contact with him?
That's all for now.
Thank you. I appreciate any and all ideas. I also appreciate tactful honesty.
There was a time when my husband and I were going through a rough patch. We worked things out and we're stronger together now because of it. We learned a lot about ourselves and about other people. At the time of this bump in the road, we were going to file for divorce. At that time, I dated a man. Let's call him Jean. I fell head over heels in love with Jean, however, our relationship didn't end up meeting my expectations and it didn't last long. It turned out that Jean was an abusive, indecisive, schizoaffective (that's schizophrenic + bipolar) and unstable meth head. Things deteriorated rather quickly as Jean lost touch with reality and binged on meth. He stole a lot of my intellectual property, without my consent and without giving me any credit. I severed off all contact with him. He harassed me through my job. He killed himself in August. The really creepy thing is that I've known Jean in every single life that I've ever lived. He's always been obsessed with and fixated on me. His name always starts with the letter J and his life always ends by means of suicide. After killing himself (this time), he started haunting me and possessing my husband. After a full paranormal investigation, we had hours worth of recorded EVP's of Jean. It was clearly him. It was his voice and his accent. We were successfully able to banish him from our lives. Yet, some of the feelings I have because of the abuse still linger. Sometimes, I have a hard time accepting that Jean is dead. I'll Google him. It's like, I'm expecting to find that he's posted something online, but he hasn't, not since the day before he committed suicide. To the best of my knowledge, deceased people don't text or Tweet. Both of the phone numbers for his business have been shutoff. However, I've learned a great deal about the kind of person he was. He had fathered numerous children and was a dead-beat dad. He had many aliases. He had a criminal record. His IP addresses were blacklisted all over the internet. He was married, which was news to me. Many of his associates were drug addicted prostitutes. He believed that he was a time traveller. Yet, still, I'm having a hard time accepting that he's gone. The abuse, it really messed with my head. I'm a very happy person and I still am, but I've been feeling vulnerable due to the abuse and Jean's suicide. It's like, I want him to be alive so that he'll tell me the truth so that I'll have closure.
It's been taking me a while to heal from the abuse and Jean's suicide, especially because I've not had closure. I feel slightly disillusioned and resentful. I want this reading to help me find closure. I want to completely let go and move on, but I feel like karma is keeping me "tied" to Jean. I'm not entirely sure what questions to ask nor what to focus on. I have many ideas, though. Should the focus be on me and my feelings... Why the abuse effected me and how to heal... Jean's character... Why I'm having a hard time letting go/moving on and what actions to take... All of the above? Does anyone have any ideas?
Here are some possible questions that I can think of:
What was the lesson that I was meant to learn?
What were my unconscious desires?
What were J's unconscious desires?
What was hidden?
What was J hiding from me?
What were my greatest hopes and fears?
What were J's greatest hopes and fears?
Was I being indecisive?
Was J being indecisive?
Why was J abusing me?
How did I see J? Was my view realistic?
How did J see me? Was his view realistic?
What were my motives?
What were J's motives?
Did J have ulterior motives? What were they?
What were the consequences?
How did I feel about J?
How did J feel about me?
What should I avoid?
What were the negative influences?
Why was I disappointed?
What were the underlying influences?
What needs to be clarified?
What should I look out for?
How can I move on?
How can I let go?
What actions need to be taken?
What needs to be left in the past?
What should I take from the past?
What was at the heart of the situation?
What was the challenge?
What karmic/past-life lessons need to be applied here?
What didn't I see before? What was I missing?
What became apparent with hind-sight?
What were the unseen truths?
What unseen elements was I blind to?
What did I desire, yet not express?
What did J desire, yet not express?
Did my desires express themselves unhealthily?
Did J's desires express themselves unhealthily?
How could I have expressed my desires in ways that were healthy?
How could J have expressed his desires in ways that were healthy?
Why did J commit suicide?
Did J find peace in the end?
Why did J haunt me and possess my husband?
What was J attempting to achieve by all of this?
Why has J been fixated on and obsessed with me?
Why did J steal my intellectual property?
Should I sever off all karmic ties to J?
Was I right to leave J and sever off all contact with him?
That's all for now.
Thank you. I appreciate any and all ideas. I also appreciate tactful honesty.