I have on my judgy pants and am wielding my flaming sword, but the pants don't fit and that sucker is hot.
I feel awkward, angry, and overcharged. Teth is hard. At least I pull it from a difficult place. I have no idea how I get from here to that beautiful scene on Crowley's Lust.
First off we have a moral triad. Okay maybe not, then an ethical triangle, and if not that, a sensuous world. The last one I get. I can see Crowley bucking the first two with a picture of a naked woman on his card. What has morality or ethics got to do with anything? I know it does, because I want justice dammit.
My go-to Case has thrown me. Count, count, count, count, count. Okay, I get it, he's a qabalist.
It does smack a little of 0=2.
Or Divide, Add, Mutiply, and Understand. =56
9 for the value of Teth.
19 for the path.
216 for ARIH/Leo, identical with Wrath by the way.
SVD for Secret = 70 + HPOVLVT = 206 for a total numeration of this path of 276.
I got nothing.
I go all the way back to Case's comment on Mars for Geburah.
Right Action, that is, right use of the Mars-force, is always graceful.
It is Dion Fortune that gives me the first real sense of the path... I think.
We must learn to love and trust the mailed warrior with the sword as well as Divine love which give us a cup of cold water and says, “Come unto me all ye that are weary and laden.”
But Crowley says it is not the strength of Geburah, but the influence of Chesed on Guburah which brings so much balance to this path.
Well hell, none of this tells me how to wield my flaming sword against a neighbor who thinks he's the only star in the universe... Without killing him.
And it is obviously not about him at all because this isn't the first time these issues come up, but a string of lousy neighbors, with an alarming similarity of boundary stomping and button pushing, all from the same house, until they realize they have to pay a mortgage, and foreclose.
I just want to learn my lesson and stop the madness so I can go back to being a divine love goddess again.