squeakmo9
5 of Rainbows ~The Outsider~
Recently in my tarot studies, issues surrounding being ignored/neglected as a kid have come up, to my surprise. I thought it interesting how a parent's treatment of me is similar to how I've been treating myself since becoming an adult. I never truly grasped this passing of the baton, as it were, from my step-parent to myself. All of it came rushing at me from an incident that had nothing to do with how I was raised, but rather, how I was being (presently) treated. I should say...how I perceived being treated by another. Feeling really low at not being acknowledged I was reminded (my inner Buddha?) that I CAN turn this around. So I asked what it was that I REALLY wanted. I simply wanted to be appreciated. To my great astonishment, I found I could give this to myself, NOW. In a matter of minutes, I started feeling better, and found I had more energy.
This child in Osho 5 is sure he has been excluded, probably because it has happened before, for real. So the memory plays on, but he doesn't see other possibilities...he needs to step back to see clearly.
It's not the easiest thing, to step back, and understand, but not impossible either
Recently in my tarot studies, issues surrounding being ignored/neglected as a kid have come up, to my surprise. I thought it interesting how a parent's treatment of me is similar to how I've been treating myself since becoming an adult. I never truly grasped this passing of the baton, as it were, from my step-parent to myself. All of it came rushing at me from an incident that had nothing to do with how I was raised, but rather, how I was being (presently) treated. I should say...how I perceived being treated by another. Feeling really low at not being acknowledged I was reminded (my inner Buddha?) that I CAN turn this around. So I asked what it was that I REALLY wanted. I simply wanted to be appreciated. To my great astonishment, I found I could give this to myself, NOW. In a matter of minutes, I started feeling better, and found I had more energy.
This child in Osho 5 is sure he has been excluded, probably because it has happened before, for real. So the memory plays on, but he doesn't see other possibilities...he needs to step back to see clearly.
It's not the easiest thing, to step back, and understand, but not impossible either