Anyway, do you have an outlet to have a bi**h fest with? The devil never comes up as a positive for me, but maybe you need to do something "sinful" to get past it. Whether that's reading a very dirty novel, going out & staying out late doing a indulgent bar ( for bar food & loud music - if you're on meds I'm sure you have restrictions on booze).
I don't have a reliable outlet for expressing my feelings period and it's because I never feel like people care about how I feel. When I try to get advice online, certain portions of my posts tend to be ignored or misinterpreted. Additionally, being called "whiny" makes me close up more, and even if people don't always say it, sometimes the way a post comes across says that to me.
The most recent example of my feelings being shut down is when my psychiatrist addressed my complaint about my inconsistent energy levels by saying, "Yea, that's been going on for a while now," and proceeding to suggest nothing about how to fix it. Unfortunately, now I'm dealing with near uncontrollable rage. Next time I see him, I will be more forward about needing help with my poor energy levels considering how they're severely impacting my mental health and this morning I called my psychiatrist's office to ask about coming in earlier.
I do have restrictions on alcoholic beverages, but I don't like alcohol anyway. I don't even like soda beverages or coffee.
If doing something "sinful" is the solution, I might have to brush up on my knowledge of "sinful" acts outside of the 7 deadly sins.
Also, some meds make me very apathetic, emotionally flat. Especially hard since I react very badly to ssri's. But meds are a devil I have to deal with. So the devil could be linked to a medicine. Just because you have to be tethered to something you shouldn't have to be trapped by it. You should be able to bring it with you on creative journeys.
Probably not medication-related. My medications are working as they should be. The only problem is they may not be strong enough at their current doses.
Read up on what you're taking and things you might be able to take. Everything has an insane side effect list and most mention that if symptoms come back or get worse to seek help quickly.y
My symptoms are coming back, but I could just be dealing with an especially awful situation that would require stronger medication to manage properly. Based on what little I've found, I could be dealing with the results of long-term chronic stress. I don't know when the stress started building. It just looks like this month was the final trigger before I noticed it. I'm definitely trying to seek help before things get too bad. I just hope my psychiatrist is able to see me quickly enough. I mean, I'm trying my hardest to control my temper. I just don't know how long until I can't do it anymore.
At least I'm reasonably confident that my psychiatrist will listen to me next time I see him. it is, after all, his job to treat mental illnesses, and with my depression coming back alongside some extremely powerful anger, I'm sure he wouldn't want to just brush me off like he did before.