Sheri
I am posting about this here, in Talking Tarot because it used to happen to me whenever I did readings. Now it only happens when I do face to face readings.
DIFU... the "Deep Inside **** Up." The fear of being wrong, of screwing up, of-- you get the idea. I didn't know it was called this until I mentioned it to Umbrae and he told me what it was. I just knew that before every venue I read at, I get "tested" to see how great my commitment really is.
There are 2 ways mine attacks: physically and what I will call "logistically."
The physical one is particularly strong. I get physically ill to the point I throw up. I get severe pains in my neck or back or legs to the point I can't move.
The logistic one is strong too, but doesn't hurt so I pay less attention. It's when everything goes wrong. No ink in the printer for cards or flyers. Computer keeps shutting off or won't open the files. Forgetting things. Being distracted by things I shouldn't let myself be distracted by. Carrying the baggage of my day job with me to the point I don't think I'm worthy, etc. I could go on.
I know it is DIFU and not "real" things because as soon as I say "I don't care, I'm going and reading anyway!" it all clears up. The pain vanishes. The car trouble goes away
So, when the DIFU is strong... in whatever you want to do, kick its boney a** and do what you were going to do anyway.
Sheri
DIFU... the "Deep Inside **** Up." The fear of being wrong, of screwing up, of-- you get the idea. I didn't know it was called this until I mentioned it to Umbrae and he told me what it was. I just knew that before every venue I read at, I get "tested" to see how great my commitment really is.
There are 2 ways mine attacks: physically and what I will call "logistically."
The physical one is particularly strong. I get physically ill to the point I throw up. I get severe pains in my neck or back or legs to the point I can't move.
The logistic one is strong too, but doesn't hurt so I pay less attention. It's when everything goes wrong. No ink in the printer for cards or flyers. Computer keeps shutting off or won't open the files. Forgetting things. Being distracted by things I shouldn't let myself be distracted by. Carrying the baggage of my day job with me to the point I don't think I'm worthy, etc. I could go on.
I know it is DIFU and not "real" things because as soon as I say "I don't care, I'm going and reading anyway!" it all clears up. The pain vanishes. The car trouble goes away
So, when the DIFU is strong... in whatever you want to do, kick its boney a** and do what you were going to do anyway.
Sheri