Okay I'l post all about my Moon experience. I've been getting this card daily for the past year it coincided with the development of PTSD for me. The event which precipitated it was innocuous and it was several months and lots of Dr's appointments before I could even get a diagnosis let alone start treatment. I've struggled with it since.
The overriding theme of my Moon experience was fear of sudden death. Yes my brain kept telling me that any moment now I was going to suddenly die. Any slight sensation in my body had me in terror of this very thing. That's the illusion part.
Recognised therapies for this only got me so far. It got me just well enough to go back to work and spend the rest of my time internally battling my fear of death but never resolving it. Three weeks ago I came across some work that i thought I would try because it was similar to another therapy I was already using with some success. The difference is, this one takes an entirely spiritual approach to the whole idea of the disorder. I commenced the work. Within three days I no longer was triggered by my bodily sensations as fearing impending death. Within a week the majority of PTSD symptoms were gone. Two weeks in now and I am basically living a normal life again. So much so that I quit my job, didn't have a nervous breakdown doing it and am now looking forward to working for myself in a career that I have long known about but done nothing about.
So how does this relate to the Moon? The Moon is things that look like one thing but are really another. My entire PTSD experience wasn't about anything other than my refusal to move on from where I was spiritually. Now that I've commenced that work in an honest and earnest effort my body no longer needs to shout at me and set off alarm bells. I am now gracefully embracing my transition every single day and no longer experiencing major anxiety as a result.
The Moon is the heavy lifting card, it's about doing the 'work' of life by moving through fear, shadows and anxieties in order to acquire the skills and attributes necessary for the next level. It's about tricking you into shifting gear when you've refused to do it. When we graciously accept our transitions as they are meant to occur we get other cards to denote that. The Moon happens when we resist it and that sets up the madness within us and then we rush towards what we think is a solution to our pain, only to realise it's parlaying us into the road we should have already taken.
So for me, the Moon isn't just a difficult event, that would be The Tower, something that happens, we experience it, get over it and move on. The Moon is a build up of emotional resistance like the tide depicted before being thrown on the shores of insecurity and madness (the washed up crustacean). The two towers which are generally crumbling is the old structure of our life that should have been left long ago. The dogs and wolves are howling because thats generally what's happening with us emotionally in this situation. We don't know how to respond to this thing which is confusing us and we end up just howling in our anguish. Because the Moon involves a lot of emotional resistance to events the transition it requires is generally an internal one rather than anything happening outside of us. Again it's that illusion, that others are doing this to us, when in fact we are doing it to ourselves.
