linnie
I know that this is a heresy in this forum, but I'll suggest it anyhow: Why not take a break from Tarot?
What he said A change is as good as a holiday... But... if you want to keep trying, I find Vision Quest to be a seriously insightful and gentle deck to read with intuitively. I can easily just 'wander' into the artwork, and find myself somewhere, completely absorbed, feeling its story...
Funny how different decks affect people, though. You don't like preachy, but seem to enjoy the Osho Zen deck, and yet I found it so preachy I disposed of mine having never actually worked with it... A decent glance at the book was all it took to irritate me... and yet many people have said they LOVE that deck..