Astra
This thread is here because I was looking for a place to think out loud and possibly get some input.
I had an incredibly emotional reaction to what was actually a pretty innocuous post in another thread: "I have to admit that I am kind of happy that you wont get rich on tarot, because once money is involved it changes."
The content of the discussion was, oddly enough, that you're not likely to get rich creating Tarot decks, which I have no particular argument with.
My problem seems to be that I translated that into something like "If you're doing this for money, there's something wrong with you", with overtones of "we should be above all that".
And I don't know whether my reaction was based on emotional garbage that I need to get rid of, or the accumulated past frustrations of trying to hold rational discussions with people who are convinced that "true" art is done for love alone and making a living should be something else again.
Part of the problem may be that I would really like to believe that - it would be a much simpler universe, from my standpoint, if I could spend my time doing artwork and know that the universe would automatically reward my efforts. Works that way in books, right?
But to paraphrase an oldie, "the universe helps those who help themselves - sometimes". And sometimes not, and no way to predict in advance which way it's going to fall. So you need to be willing to gamble if you want to accomplish anything, and in this society, at least, what you gamble with is money.
Publishers are professional gamblers, with a lot invested in covering all the major odds bets. What they lose on one deck, or ten, they make back on half a dozen others. Individuals have to go with slightly longer odds, but the rewards, if there are any, can be quite a bit higher, proportionate to the investment.
So I'm now in the process of having decks printed, knowing it's a gamble, and figuring that if I'm investing money in trying for publication, it's perfectly legitimate for me to be looking for a monetary return that, hopefully, will be high enough to fund future work. I don't expect it, but I want it, and I'm working to get it. And I have trouble with the thought that it's fine if I do it, as long as I pretend to other people that it's not really the case.
I think that's all for a first run through. Thanks for listening, and thanks in advance for your input.
I had an incredibly emotional reaction to what was actually a pretty innocuous post in another thread: "I have to admit that I am kind of happy that you wont get rich on tarot, because once money is involved it changes."
The content of the discussion was, oddly enough, that you're not likely to get rich creating Tarot decks, which I have no particular argument with.
My problem seems to be that I translated that into something like "If you're doing this for money, there's something wrong with you", with overtones of "we should be above all that".
And I don't know whether my reaction was based on emotional garbage that I need to get rid of, or the accumulated past frustrations of trying to hold rational discussions with people who are convinced that "true" art is done for love alone and making a living should be something else again.
Part of the problem may be that I would really like to believe that - it would be a much simpler universe, from my standpoint, if I could spend my time doing artwork and know that the universe would automatically reward my efforts. Works that way in books, right?
But to paraphrase an oldie, "the universe helps those who help themselves - sometimes". And sometimes not, and no way to predict in advance which way it's going to fall. So you need to be willing to gamble if you want to accomplish anything, and in this society, at least, what you gamble with is money.
Publishers are professional gamblers, with a lot invested in covering all the major odds bets. What they lose on one deck, or ten, they make back on half a dozen others. Individuals have to go with slightly longer odds, but the rewards, if there are any, can be quite a bit higher, proportionate to the investment.
So I'm now in the process of having decks printed, knowing it's a gamble, and figuring that if I'm investing money in trying for publication, it's perfectly legitimate for me to be looking for a monetary return that, hopefully, will be high enough to fund future work. I don't expect it, but I want it, and I'm working to get it. And I have trouble with the thought that it's fine if I do it, as long as I pretend to other people that it's not really the case.
I think that's all for a first run through. Thanks for listening, and thanks in advance for your input.