Minderwiz
As a preface I would remind you that Astrology charts tendencies, trends, and abilities. It does not indicate fate or what must be. Furthermore as a person grows older they confront the challenges shown in their chart and in the process change and develop.
OK Savica here is the reading of your natal chart:
You have a strong predominance of Water – feelings and emotions and tend to act from feelings rather than from conscious thought. Your next element is fire, so you can take action and indeed be assertive when you need to.
You are likely to be a private person when it comes to your feelings – you don’t share them with everyone. You are self reliant, self initiating and active as a person. You have several planets in Scorpio (Sun, Mercury, Venus and Jupiter) and this will give you an intense passionate nature. This is not immediately obvious from the way that you project yourself to the world, as you have a Libra Ascendant and will appear as a person who easily relates to others and seeks to bring harmony and beauty to life. The graphical representation of Libra is a set of scales and this is also the symbol of Justice. You will be seen as a person who wishes to see justice in the world and if wrong is done to yourself or others dear to you then the intensity of the Scorpion will be unleashed.
The Scorpio planets are all in your first house – the house of self. In a real way you are self centred, with the Sun in the first House – not in the sense of ignoring others but in the sense of trying to relate yourself to the world and indeed your place in the universe. You have a profound need to learn (Mercury) and communicate powerfully and passionately. You have a strong intellectual approach to life but may have a lot of nervous energy. You can be large hearted optimistic and visionary when you allow yourself to be.
Your Moon is in Sagittarius - emotions and feelings can be expansive, and you feel comfortable travelling abroad and you have a love of learning. You react enthusiastically and idealistically to things based on your beliefs. You have a need to question and search - which reinforces the Scorpio need for transformation. Your Moon is in a good aspect to Uranus which suggests emotional independence but it can also indicate sudden mood swings.
As said earlier your Venus is in Scorpio in the first House – this indicates an intense expression of affections and passions. You are looking for a deep and intense relationship. The placement also suggests charm, grace, personal magnetism, love of beauty and the arts and also a sensual person – one who uses sensory experience to appreciate the good things in life. You like to give and receive affection and pleasure. In your case Venus is retrograde so this may indicate that you feel complete in yourself, perhaps more in the sense of being in touch with your masculine side – that which Jung called the Animus. You may therefore experience Venus more as internal sensations than outward behaviour. Venus is in opposition to Saturn in seventh. One writer said that this was a link between Love and time –you give a lot of time to the relationship but expect the same back – a tendency to measure the relationship in terms of time partner gives. It can also symbolise a partner who is older than you (which happens to be the case here) or a tendency to look for older partners.
Mars is in the 12th in Libra. You assert yourself in a way that will not cause unnecessary offence to others, and in a tactful, and in a socially harmonious way. Mars in twelfth, can be secretive, can bottle up anger and aggression and may lead to a situation where you can easily antagonise others without consciously being aware of it – the Twelfth is the House of hidden enemies. Mars is conjunct Uranus in 12th. This tends to indicate an unusual or individualistic way of self assertion, it can also indicate a sudden assertiveness - sexual excitement and precipitate action. Again, rather it might well mean that you are attracted to exciting men with fast action lifestyles – this is great – until you get bored.
The Ruler of the 5th House of Romance is Neptune in the second –You may be looking for spiritual fulfilment in the relationship but must be careful not to turn this into dreams and fantasies. At its worst Neptune is self deceiving, you may close your eyes and pretend a relationship is something that it is not. With Neptune in second – there is a link between your material needs and your romantic needs. This may mean an attraction to someone who can give you material security or who has talents and skills that you value or who can help you enhance your own talents and skills.
Your Seventh House of Relationships (including marriage) is ruled by Mars in the twelfth. With Aries on cusp there is a potent need to find yourself through others - relationships are important to your self image and you may not always recognise the deeper consequences. Mars is in Libra the natural sign of the seventh – You may assert yourself through relationships. Saturn is in seventh - also retrograde. You may well be attracted to older men (as in this case), it also brings responsibility to the relationship – a need to learn to share on all levels. Saturn is in Taurus – giving a focus on integrity, reliability, stability. You may see marriage (not necessarily to this partner) as a means to self security. Traditional values will also be important in terms of how you manage your relationships. Again, with Saturn retrograde might have difficulty communicating this to others. The twelfth House is not necessarily a strong position for any planet, as it is the House of self undoing. You therefore need to be sure about a relationship before you commit yourself to it. The shape of your chart projects a clear focus on Saturn – marriage and partnership will be a very important element in your life – possibly as the vehicle you use to find yourself and try to place yourself in the universe. At its worst in this position Saturn can indicate a fear of love – possibly because of a fear of being hurt through the experience. Saturn is a protective planet and will build structure to keep that which we are afraid of outside. Saturn retrograde sometimes indicates that you have difficulty in believing that you are loved and accepted for what you are and you need to have constant reassurance. You may also swing between a belief that you can handle anything and a feeling of a total lack of control over events.
You also have an opposition between first House Jupiter and Saturn – such aspects usually denote a test of faith – a real need to set out on a quest to find yourself and to define yourself. Saturn/Jupiter aspects usually indicate material success, though in the case of a hard aspect such as the opposition you will have to work for it. However I feel in your case that success in career, whilst something to be appreciated is not what you seek in life – you seek yourself.
Looking at the chart I would sum up by saying that you are an intense and passionate person. You are looking for a partner who can not only return your intensity of feeling but who can also help you on your quest to find yourself. . You may well expect this person to be older than yourself. What you need to be able to do is to ensure that you do not deceive yourself in this process and that you recognise that the role of the partner is not simply to assist in the quest. They have needs and demands to. To realise that you can help them attain their needs but ask for nothing in return (not even time) is one of life’s lessons. With relatively little Air in your chart you may find it difficult to rationalise what is happening, you go with your feelings and I think you usually trust what your feelings tell you – even if you don’t like what they say.
I’d be grateful if you could post some comments before I move on to your boyfriend, Gary.
With sincerity
Minderwiz
OK Savica here is the reading of your natal chart:
You have a strong predominance of Water – feelings and emotions and tend to act from feelings rather than from conscious thought. Your next element is fire, so you can take action and indeed be assertive when you need to.
You are likely to be a private person when it comes to your feelings – you don’t share them with everyone. You are self reliant, self initiating and active as a person. You have several planets in Scorpio (Sun, Mercury, Venus and Jupiter) and this will give you an intense passionate nature. This is not immediately obvious from the way that you project yourself to the world, as you have a Libra Ascendant and will appear as a person who easily relates to others and seeks to bring harmony and beauty to life. The graphical representation of Libra is a set of scales and this is also the symbol of Justice. You will be seen as a person who wishes to see justice in the world and if wrong is done to yourself or others dear to you then the intensity of the Scorpion will be unleashed.
The Scorpio planets are all in your first house – the house of self. In a real way you are self centred, with the Sun in the first House – not in the sense of ignoring others but in the sense of trying to relate yourself to the world and indeed your place in the universe. You have a profound need to learn (Mercury) and communicate powerfully and passionately. You have a strong intellectual approach to life but may have a lot of nervous energy. You can be large hearted optimistic and visionary when you allow yourself to be.
Your Moon is in Sagittarius - emotions and feelings can be expansive, and you feel comfortable travelling abroad and you have a love of learning. You react enthusiastically and idealistically to things based on your beliefs. You have a need to question and search - which reinforces the Scorpio need for transformation. Your Moon is in a good aspect to Uranus which suggests emotional independence but it can also indicate sudden mood swings.
As said earlier your Venus is in Scorpio in the first House – this indicates an intense expression of affections and passions. You are looking for a deep and intense relationship. The placement also suggests charm, grace, personal magnetism, love of beauty and the arts and also a sensual person – one who uses sensory experience to appreciate the good things in life. You like to give and receive affection and pleasure. In your case Venus is retrograde so this may indicate that you feel complete in yourself, perhaps more in the sense of being in touch with your masculine side – that which Jung called the Animus. You may therefore experience Venus more as internal sensations than outward behaviour. Venus is in opposition to Saturn in seventh. One writer said that this was a link between Love and time –you give a lot of time to the relationship but expect the same back – a tendency to measure the relationship in terms of time partner gives. It can also symbolise a partner who is older than you (which happens to be the case here) or a tendency to look for older partners.
Mars is in the 12th in Libra. You assert yourself in a way that will not cause unnecessary offence to others, and in a tactful, and in a socially harmonious way. Mars in twelfth, can be secretive, can bottle up anger and aggression and may lead to a situation where you can easily antagonise others without consciously being aware of it – the Twelfth is the House of hidden enemies. Mars is conjunct Uranus in 12th. This tends to indicate an unusual or individualistic way of self assertion, it can also indicate a sudden assertiveness - sexual excitement and precipitate action. Again, rather it might well mean that you are attracted to exciting men with fast action lifestyles – this is great – until you get bored.
The Ruler of the 5th House of Romance is Neptune in the second –You may be looking for spiritual fulfilment in the relationship but must be careful not to turn this into dreams and fantasies. At its worst Neptune is self deceiving, you may close your eyes and pretend a relationship is something that it is not. With Neptune in second – there is a link between your material needs and your romantic needs. This may mean an attraction to someone who can give you material security or who has talents and skills that you value or who can help you enhance your own talents and skills.
Your Seventh House of Relationships (including marriage) is ruled by Mars in the twelfth. With Aries on cusp there is a potent need to find yourself through others - relationships are important to your self image and you may not always recognise the deeper consequences. Mars is in Libra the natural sign of the seventh – You may assert yourself through relationships. Saturn is in seventh - also retrograde. You may well be attracted to older men (as in this case), it also brings responsibility to the relationship – a need to learn to share on all levels. Saturn is in Taurus – giving a focus on integrity, reliability, stability. You may see marriage (not necessarily to this partner) as a means to self security. Traditional values will also be important in terms of how you manage your relationships. Again, with Saturn retrograde might have difficulty communicating this to others. The twelfth House is not necessarily a strong position for any planet, as it is the House of self undoing. You therefore need to be sure about a relationship before you commit yourself to it. The shape of your chart projects a clear focus on Saturn – marriage and partnership will be a very important element in your life – possibly as the vehicle you use to find yourself and try to place yourself in the universe. At its worst in this position Saturn can indicate a fear of love – possibly because of a fear of being hurt through the experience. Saturn is a protective planet and will build structure to keep that which we are afraid of outside. Saturn retrograde sometimes indicates that you have difficulty in believing that you are loved and accepted for what you are and you need to have constant reassurance. You may also swing between a belief that you can handle anything and a feeling of a total lack of control over events.
You also have an opposition between first House Jupiter and Saturn – such aspects usually denote a test of faith – a real need to set out on a quest to find yourself and to define yourself. Saturn/Jupiter aspects usually indicate material success, though in the case of a hard aspect such as the opposition you will have to work for it. However I feel in your case that success in career, whilst something to be appreciated is not what you seek in life – you seek yourself.
Looking at the chart I would sum up by saying that you are an intense and passionate person. You are looking for a partner who can not only return your intensity of feeling but who can also help you on your quest to find yourself. . You may well expect this person to be older than yourself. What you need to be able to do is to ensure that you do not deceive yourself in this process and that you recognise that the role of the partner is not simply to assist in the quest. They have needs and demands to. To realise that you can help them attain their needs but ask for nothing in return (not even time) is one of life’s lessons. With relatively little Air in your chart you may find it difficult to rationalise what is happening, you go with your feelings and I think you usually trust what your feelings tell you – even if you don’t like what they say.
I’d be grateful if you could post some comments before I move on to your boyfriend, Gary.
With sincerity
Minderwiz