Thanks for that Willowfox! I have been pondering what you said there but I think I have to disagree, based on my own experience and nothing else. I definitely found that the same themes that are arising now, arose back in October/November 2006, only perhaps because I didn't do anything about it then, I am being given another chance now. At least that is how I like to look at it. And if I don't look at it now, it is only going to come back again in another 30 or so years!!!
Oh boy, that really isn't funny!
Like I said, I have recognised what it is pointing at to change, but to be truthful, it ain't an overnighter. Do I have the next 30 years to work on it? I hope so! OK, maybe not 30... 5?
Thanks to everyone who has shared their knowledge in this thread, I am very thankful for all your help and guidance, at what has been a most interesting but also a most trying time for me!