Re: Thanks Starfish
Hey, Moongold, as per your request, let's have a look...
Moongold said:
Throne 1
Ace of Cups
Hermit Sun Death Fool
Emperor
This is childhood/youth. Cups indicates a love of pleasure. I see you in the "Fool" card here; a time when you were young, happy, enthuiastic--but also naive. Having seen what you wrote it's quite clear that this was the time when your brother (The Sun = siblings--especially a male sibling) came and "Killed" your sunshine. "Depletion" is also a possibility with the Ace of Cups, and it would seem that the "Sun" was taken away--The Emperor is also involved here--as you indicate he didn't quite favor you. This was the moment when you began to transform from naive, happy fool into hermit--more solitary, thoughtful, less trusting. The pleasure of life was deminished, depleated.
Throne 2
Ace of Pentacles
Tower Hierophant Magician Justice
This is your current career--what you're doing or trying to do with your life--your ambitions, your work. And it's highly favorable, being Ace of Pentacles. Interesting that here, as with childhood, you have a "father figure"/brother--the Hierophant--only this one is positive. A partner, advisor, friend, priest or co-worker--or perhaps those friendly spirits you've mentioned--who is giving you some very good advice--in fact, given the Tower, I'd say that whatever he (she or it) has said to you, it's torn down lies and false structure, shaken you up, and made you see your wants, needs and ambitions in a whole new light--as you mentioned, I believe. New insights.
I see you as the Magician in this part of the spread--no longer the naive fool or the cautious Hermit, but wise, adept, talented--able to see beneath the lies to a deeper truth--willing to speak your mind and say what you see as well. And, from the Justice card, your new goal is to bring balance and fairness to the world.
Throne 3
Ace of Rods
Star Temperance Hanged Man Strength
Empress
This is love, romance, partnerships. Rods indicate recent conflicts and difficulties in this area. As the Empress, you've been patient, creative, willing to wait and let love grow and develop. At first, you had a very hopeful view of love--the Star--and saw a positive future. But then you started to alter this view with a dose of reality--Temperance--now you're feeling like the Hanged Man--stalled, in limbo. You're wondering if you should draw on your inner strength and continue. It's a difficult time.
Throne 4
Ace of Swords
Devil Lovers Judgement Moon High Priestess
Charioteer World Wheel of Fortune
Your past life was a time of GREAT POWER.
The Devil indicates to me a person in power in this past life that caused a lot of people pain--enslaved them, tricked them, abused them. The High Priestess and the Charioteer are the Lovers. I'm not sure which you were in this life, but I *suspect* it was the Charioteer (more on that later). We have here a "holy woman" and a "Warrior". They met at night, by the moonlight, and it was their aim to change the situation--Judgement--they were going to renew and restore the right. Relating also to the Moon is that the High Priestess' deeper psychic powers or spirituality helped them--as much as their intincts, love, and willingness to just go with the madness of the moment. The World and Wheel of Fortune indictes to me that they succeeded, defeating the Devil and changing the both the world and the times in which they lived in.
No telling if this situation was very large (countries) or very small (a village or household).
Relating to Childhood--The Devil in this case is brother/father returned to removed that childhood light from your originally carefree, pleasure-loving youth. Thus, your old enemy returned from a past life to haunt you in childhood.
Relating to Career--that Hierophant, either physically there or spiritually, is your other half (Charioteer or High Priestess--you said someone you never meet but who'd died was still with you--High Priestess?)--helping you to succeed as she did in your past life, to get past the damage done by the Devil. Also, as in the past life, you're intent on making judgements, on fighting for fairness and change of the unbalanced status quo.
Relates back to the unfairness you saw done to you in childhood as well as in the past life--FAIRNESS is very important to you.
Relating to Love--the love of this past life, which allowed you to do incredible things, indicates why you're so hopeful and willing to "soldier on" in this life when it comes to love. It's why you were such an optimistic child, why you're intent on justice, etc, in this life.
Am I anywhere near on target with any of this? Or does any of this help you to see what it really might all be about?
Starfish
Starfish