sapienza
Hi everyone,
I'm new to the forum and have a particular interest in Astrology as well as the Tarot.
I am interested to get some opinions on one feature of my own natal chart and see if anyone else has a similar situation. I have Saturn in my 5th house (in Gemini). I also have Sun, Mercury and Jupiter in Sagittarius (in 11th house), Moon, Venus in Capricorn (in 12th house) and Asc in Capricorn as well, and Mars in Pisces.
I have always been quite sure I wouldn't have any children, and had basically decided that I just wasn't going to have any. I am currently 30 and at the age when people around me are starting to have children and from time to time it seems like not such a bad idea. But then suddenly, I am totally overwhelmed by an intense FEAR of becoming a mother. It is the fear of responsibility that I think gets to me. It's so difficult to explain. I worry about whether I'll be good enough, and if I'm psychologically balanced enough, but more than anything, whether I'll be able to cope with the enormous responsibility of caring for someone dependent on me. And I feel ill thinking of having to devote the next 20 years of my life to someone elses need.
Sorry, I think I'm starting to ramble on a bit here. It does drive me crazy from time to time. My query relates to Saturn being in the 5th house. I have read that this can mean not having children, or having lots of difficulty raising children, or having a great fear of the responsibility of having children. Is this the case? Would it be better to accept this (as I thought I had) and just give motherhood a miss in this lifetime, or am I getting it wrong?
Again, I apologise that this post has become so long-winded. I would appreciate any comments or thoughts.
Many Thanks
angela
I'm new to the forum and have a particular interest in Astrology as well as the Tarot.
I am interested to get some opinions on one feature of my own natal chart and see if anyone else has a similar situation. I have Saturn in my 5th house (in Gemini). I also have Sun, Mercury and Jupiter in Sagittarius (in 11th house), Moon, Venus in Capricorn (in 12th house) and Asc in Capricorn as well, and Mars in Pisces.
I have always been quite sure I wouldn't have any children, and had basically decided that I just wasn't going to have any. I am currently 30 and at the age when people around me are starting to have children and from time to time it seems like not such a bad idea. But then suddenly, I am totally overwhelmed by an intense FEAR of becoming a mother. It is the fear of responsibility that I think gets to me. It's so difficult to explain. I worry about whether I'll be good enough, and if I'm psychologically balanced enough, but more than anything, whether I'll be able to cope with the enormous responsibility of caring for someone dependent on me. And I feel ill thinking of having to devote the next 20 years of my life to someone elses need.
Sorry, I think I'm starting to ramble on a bit here. It does drive me crazy from time to time. My query relates to Saturn being in the 5th house. I have read that this can mean not having children, or having lots of difficulty raising children, or having a great fear of the responsibility of having children. Is this the case? Would it be better to accept this (as I thought I had) and just give motherhood a miss in this lifetime, or am I getting it wrong?
Again, I apologise that this post has become so long-winded. I would appreciate any comments or thoughts.
Many Thanks
angela