thank you so much for the offer. I cannot think of anything how to console or comfort myself. I cannot excape these feelings, and I do not see the deeper reason for this. I'll deal with any pain as long as I understand the meaning. But this is just tearing me apart, and I don't know what it is good for.
What kind of weird operation is going on? Is this some sick sense of cosmic humour?
My Sweet sweet A! My Goddess oracles were just calling out to me. I have never used them on the Forum. Never used them for others outside myself... and as I shuffled thinking of you, these 4 popped out:
Eireen (Peace) + Aine (Leap of Faith) + Pele (Divine Passion) + White Tara (Sensitivity)
Have a look at the picture... and see the what the cards say. I think this would resonate well with you!
Eireen assures you that even though things look chaotic, everything is working in the Divine order. Hence you need not worry... but pray, meditate and surrender your worries to the Higher Entities, the Universe and everything and everyone you believe in. I know you are tortured by this situation, but it is asking you to be composed (as in the Strength card) and stay at peace. She suggests you engage in peaceful activities... anything which relaxes and composes you. She is the Greek goddess of Peace, according to this oracle book. She replaces worry with faith!
Aine is precisely asking you to take this leap of faith! She says "procrastinating about your dreams won't make them go away." She asks for a decision to be made. A huge leap into what you truly want. She says that once you make the decision, the Universe will support it and manifest it for you. She says "Heaven fully supports your mission". You are on the right path, right track... whatever it is you CHOOSE to do is RIGHT.
Pele is asking you to be honest with yourself. What do you truly, truly want? She calls on you to hear your own heartbeat, your own internal rhythms and to respect those. She wants you to follow the path Aine has asked you to decide on. It doesn't have to relate to A. Perhaps it will even take you away from him. But what is it that is really deep within, what ignites you? What is this burning passion that needs to erupt like the volcano in the picture?
White Tara here is cautioning you, at the end of the spread. She stays stay away from things which are harmful and abrasive to you. You know what this is. She says to beware of harmful relationships. She calls upon you to "steer clear of what which your body signals you to avoid." So again, listen to the internal rhythm... follow your flow. Do not ignore yourself and your inner voice. You have to take every step to not steep in negativity, and this is very important here. Steer clear of all negative triggers.
I think the Goddesses are very clear in their messages. This is both cyclical and intertwined to me. Avoid all the negativity to be at peace, take a leap of faith to unleash your passion and to remove this drowning negativity. Be bold, be volcanic! Be at peace with your every move which the burning furnaces inside of you are pushing you to do. Know it's the right thing. Everything is working in the Divine right order!
Much love to you my sweet <3