Good intuition? Or something more sinister?

[SarahMaeDee]

So, I posted this yesterday in the Divination forum, seeing as yesterday I didn't have a subscriber account. As well, I wasn't exactly sure where to post it. Anyway, Mona18 was so kind and offered me a reading. I guess I'll post a link to the topic, so anyone who could help me (if they want to) can know what was already discussed about what happened.


I started off by saying:

Okay, so my mother usually forces me to go to church on Sundays, as is what happened today [8/19/12] (she's very Catholic). So anyway, I was at church, and the priest was giving his sermon, when all of a sudden my eyes kind of went out of focus, kind of spacing out on the priest. Then, I started whispering completely in synchronization with what the priest was saying...For the entire rest of the sermon, which lasted about 5 more minutes. Now, I'm kind of freaked out about this, seeing as weird stuff has happened to me at church before. I guess I was just wondering if this is something I should be worried about, or if I just have really good intuition.


Anyway here is the link to the original discussion.
Original Topic
You'll notice that at the end it seems as though the problem has been resolved. However, after sleeping on the event that occurred, another memory came to mind. I remember one time I was at church, and I was willing one of the candles up at the front to go out. After about a half hour of doing this, I gave up. However, the second I gave up, and my attention was no longer focused on the candle, it went out. I have never been able to repeat this.


I don't know, I guess both of these occurrences just kind of freaked me out. I mean, the candle thing I did on purpose, but when I was whispering, I didn't even realize that I was doing it for a few seconds, and then once I did, I felt compelled to keep whispering along with the priest.


If anyone has any idea as to what happened to me, your input would be greatly appreciated.


Thank you so much,
~Sarah

 

[SarahMaeDee]

Please, I would like some advice on this.

 

[VGimlet]

I think you should take a deep breath.

Sometimes unexpected and unexplained things happen. I liked the reading that you got, to have faith.

As far as the candle thing goes, enjoy it for what it was, or wasn't. If it was coincidence, which it could have been (I have seen candles with some amazing timing, in my day) or if it wasn't - let it give you a smile. If it was a message it almost seems like it was the same one - relax, have faith.

I don't think evil things have much hold in places where there is faith and good intentions.

 

[Milfoil]

Sounds like you have relaxed down into an altered state of awareness which has brought you in synch with the priest. This kind of connectedness is common and we can all learn how to enhance it. Not just with people but with everything.

As VGimlet says, take a deep breath and relax. These are skills which all humans (and most animals) have which helped to keep us alive in the past. They helped us to track animals for food and clothing and helped us to know what was going on past what we could see or hear.

The candle going out may or may not be significant, it's only a skill if you can repeat it at will!

Where do you want to take this? Do you want to explore it? If so, meditation may be a good next step.

 

[Hanno]

Hello

Definitely meditation to explore further could prove useful.

What I am sensing as well in what your described is the importance of spiritual/energy-based protection. You can search/google, you will find a lot of easy steps for meditation or visualisation to achieve this. It does feel that you have a strong connection or resonance with the church message (which is not necessarily the same as the church as an institution or the way you know it/your mother practices it).

In having faith (whatever that means exactly to you) I sense the message in part is that you will find a place where you can seek refuge/protection. I don't know if this talks to you or not, so apologies if it doesn't.

 

[SarahMaeDee]

Thank you all so much for your input, it is very much appreciated.
However, for the people who are saying that it's my spirit guides, or an altered state of consciousness, I really hope you are right. I've never really been much of a spiritual person, and for some reason I have this OCD-like thing that I do at church where I refuse to actually touch the holy water when I go into or leave the church (I probably haven't touched it in 4-5 months).
As well, there's something else that's been going on all day today.
For some reason I feel extremely guilty for posting what I did about both of the occurrences at church, almost as if some part of me didn't want me to tell anyone. But I did want to let y'all know, so I'm kind of confused as to why I feel guilty. It's almost like I'm being punished for something, but I don't know what I did wrong.
On top of all of this, I have had a song stuck in my head since I woke up this morning that I haven't listened to in a very long time. The title is "Hell" and it's by a band called Disturbed. There is one line in particular that has been stuck in my head, and I'm not sure if it's just me being paranoid, or what.
The line is: "Get back from me demon, or be exorcised!"
The weird part is it's repeating in my head in MY voice, not the original singer's.
I don't know what's happening. I feel like I'm going crazy, and on top of that, I'm scared. I don't know why I suddenly feel this way. I don't even believe in heaven, hell, or demons...Please help me.

 

[Milfoil]

One of the fundamental aspects of any spiritual path is the facing of fear. Demons or the animalistic fears personified have been misunderstood by Christianity for centuries. As part of all creation they serve a purpose to force us to face fear, death and pain and so either our soul grows by conquering the demon and making it our ally or we stagnate and live in fear.

Whether you believe in the Christian idea of heaven and hell (which are concepts/names borrowed from other beliefs) or demons doesn't matter, what does is what you fear and how you face it.

 

[Carla]

Is it possible that what he was saying was somehow familiar to your subconscious, because he's said something very similar before, or it is a traditional part of the service? Closing remarks often go by a set pattern. It could be you're overthinking this. I haven't followed the link yet to your reading, but that is my first reaction.

ETA: I've read the link. His object lesson was pretty obvious. I think you shouldn't worry yourself about it. See if it happens again, it's kind of neat. And I thought the candle thing as cool. I don't think you caused it to go out so much as had a sort of premonition of when it would go out. Like when we know the phone is about to ring.

 

[The crowned one]

I was thinking something along the same lines as Carla. If you are in a "trance state" you are not focused externally, your awareness will not be on your external environment but inward, so what you you remember is what you believe rather then what happened as a possible explanation.

The candle is not bothersome, and is a easy coincidence.

 

[starla]

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For some reason I feel extremely guilty for posting what I did about both of the occurrences at church, almost as if some part of me didn't want me to tell anyone. But I did want to let y'all know, so I'm kind of confused as to why I feel guilty. It's almost like I'm being punished for something, but I don't know what I did wrong.
On top of all of this, I have had a song stuck in my head since I woke up this morning that I haven't listened to in a very long time. The title is "Hell" and it's by a band called Disturbed. There is one line in particular that has been stuck in my head, and I'm not sure if it's just me being paranoid, or what.
The line is: "Get back from me demon, or be exorcised!"
The weird part is it's repeating in my head in MY voice, not the original singer's.
I don't know what's happening. I feel like I'm going crazy, and on top of that, I'm scared. I don't know why I suddenly feel this way. I don't even believe in heaven, hell, or demons...Please help me.

Hello

You aren't going crazy, but from what I can see it's clear that your spirituality is undergoing some kind of shift right now. It's natural as a young person to reject that which your parents promote, and I wonder if some of your feelings are related to this.
I also wonder if there's someone in your church you might be able to speak to about this - if not your priest, maybe a youth worker. I know that in my church (not RC incidentally) there is a priest responsible for dealing with experiences of the paranormal - things like demons, spooky experiences and hauntings. He's extremely open minded as are all the other members of the clergy and it may be that there's someone available who'd be able to discuss that element of your worry with you. You may be surprised to know that they're quite used to this sort of thing.

Whatever you feel about Catholicism or indeed any other spiritual pathway, it is my strong belief that benevolent, protective forces are available to all of us. If you feel frightened, all you ever need to do is ask for help - from people here on earth, and from people or energies on another level. Don't keep it to yourself. Speak to someone you trust who'll be able to put your worries into context. Telling someone is a bit like turning the light on after a nightmare. When you switch the light on, all the spooky shadows in the corner of the room just end up being a sweater you left on the back of a chair. When you tell someone, even if what you experience is real or genuinely strange/spooky, the fear associated with the experience often dissipates.

If you'd like a 'Catholic' saint to call on, by the way, Saint Michael the Archangel never ever lets me down.

Many blessings and best wishes to you,

Starla
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