celestial
Hi Celestial!
You might find this thread interesting.
http://www.tarotforum.net/showthread.php?t=222920 (See #7 - Mellaenn provides a prayer for protection).
Thank you, Flames. I can't see that thread, but I guess I can Google some protection prayers. I've done that in the past. I'm just going to take a break, if I can
I hear words/sentences in my sleep, upon awakening. The words are jumbled and I find myself trying to make sense of them. It feels like I'm holding on as hard as I can, like I'm trying to assemble the words, put them in their proper order.
Yes, that's when it happens for me most times, too.
Other times, the sentences are clear and coherent and I wake up saying them exactly as I heard them. Everything I hear, I look up...I find out as much as I can about the word/s, especially if I wake up saying a name, or an animal...sometimes, it's a place...Often, it feels like the words are coming through the forehead (that's the best way I can describe it).
I've had words come through that weren't so nice...in fact, they were downright, frightening. But, I don't pay them any attention. I had to learn that, though. Everything you place your attention on, grows.
Some of my messages are crystal clear, too, but usually they're the scary ones! lol They definitely come from inside my head, but my ears often hurt, too, and one particularly hostile one had my ear drums vibrating and ringing for at least 15 minutes after the fact. I was so terrified by that one, I leapt out of bed and ran for my mother! lol (Not that she was any help, but I guess it was instinct. )
If I get a pleasant and calming sensation in my chest area, I know the message is inherently a good one and that I need to pay attention. If it creates a stirring in the mind, some kind of upset, a persistent "dark" thought...I don't give it any power! I treat it like I would a thought...I watch it "move" but it doesn't take me with it! Like I said, I had to learn that and it wasn't easy, but well worth it! Any time you delve into the Mysteries, something of equal measure will be there to greet you at the other end, from the other end. It's a law of Nature. You seek out the good...and the not so good will be knocking on your door...as a way of testing your resolve. Black and white, lights and shadows...all a part of life.
I wish I could see more of the light!
You can't force yourself to hear anything. I think it has to do with "density", like you mention. You'll hear what you're supposed to hear. If we're tangled up, messages don't come through as easily. Depends on the frequency...
Well I'm definitely a rats nest of tangles, so that would explain it. lol
And...I tell them off, too! No word of a lie. Sometimes, I'm mean ...but, it's really just hurt and pain disguised as anger. They know that. Actually, I find that when I'm the meanest, or at my lowest, that's when they draw closer...That's how the light gets in...
Yes, I'm sure they know that my anger comes from pain and from self-hate, too. I don't feel like I deserve their help, but then I feel so betrayed sometimes that I don't want to fall for their tricks again. I'd rather just know that I'm on my own and not hope for something that I know won't materialize.
I feel ungrateful and so I act ungrateful, I guess. I'm definitely the one to blame. Ugly is as ugly does, right?
Thank you for sharing, Flames.