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I used a raw piece of Chryscolla, green in color for this study. The phrases that most struck me about this stone from Judy Hall’s The Crystal Bible were ‘cleanses, reenergizes, and aligns the chakras with the Divine’ and ‘draws out negative emotions such as guilt, and reverses destructive emotional programming’ (emphasis mine). I also remember I originally wanted this stone because it is said to heal damaged lungs.
Being less formal with this crystal, I simply got it out and placed it on my crystal mirror next to me. I was watching TV for a while when all of a sudden I realized I was remembering a very traumatic event in my childhood and it was present in my mind that this particular event had contributed to the Chakra imbalances in my lower 3 chakras (root, navel, solar plexus) that I have always periodically had to work toward healing.
At first I was a bit “shocked” that I was having this memory (and so calmly) and sort of started to mentally struggle against it fearing that the memory would take me down the rabbit hole to a dark and painful place. Then I realized I had absolutely nothing to fear and it was just a thought –a memory—and I could let go of it any time I wanted to. Not long after this, the thought went away. And a separate thought lingered that the memory must be related to clearing the above mentioned blockages.
About an hour later I wasn’t feeling that good—drained and sort of like I was coming down with a head cold but I knew I wasn’t. I convinced myself (after much procrastination) to do some yoga and put on a yoga CD I haven’t done in a long time. About 10 minutes into it I realized two things…1st that even though it was in the other room the Chryscolla crystal was consistently present in my mind’s eye, and 2nd that the yoga routine I had unconsciously chosen was specifically for breath work on the lungs and lower body grounding/balancing. I completely had not remembered this before I started.
At the very last of the routine in relaxation pose with one hand on the solar plexus and one hand on the heart, the earlier memory came back to my mind and I was examining why it had come up to begin with, what damage had been done, etc. Then the following thought appeared, “just because you love someone doesn’t mean you must give your soul to them. You do not have to give up who you are and what you know is right for you”. A very simple thought but I think that is a major lesson and a reason I have had so many bad relationships in life because I took from that (and other) childhood experiences that loving someone meant I had to give them whatever they wanted even if it killed my soul. This experience was almost like a gentle soul-fragment retrieval and I thank the crystal for this.
Being less formal with this crystal, I simply got it out and placed it on my crystal mirror next to me. I was watching TV for a while when all of a sudden I realized I was remembering a very traumatic event in my childhood and it was present in my mind that this particular event had contributed to the Chakra imbalances in my lower 3 chakras (root, navel, solar plexus) that I have always periodically had to work toward healing.
At first I was a bit “shocked” that I was having this memory (and so calmly) and sort of started to mentally struggle against it fearing that the memory would take me down the rabbit hole to a dark and painful place. Then I realized I had absolutely nothing to fear and it was just a thought –a memory—and I could let go of it any time I wanted to. Not long after this, the thought went away. And a separate thought lingered that the memory must be related to clearing the above mentioned blockages.
About an hour later I wasn’t feeling that good—drained and sort of like I was coming down with a head cold but I knew I wasn’t. I convinced myself (after much procrastination) to do some yoga and put on a yoga CD I haven’t done in a long time. About 10 minutes into it I realized two things…1st that even though it was in the other room the Chryscolla crystal was consistently present in my mind’s eye, and 2nd that the yoga routine I had unconsciously chosen was specifically for breath work on the lungs and lower body grounding/balancing. I completely had not remembered this before I started.
At the very last of the routine in relaxation pose with one hand on the solar plexus and one hand on the heart, the earlier memory came back to my mind and I was examining why it had come up to begin with, what damage had been done, etc. Then the following thought appeared, “just because you love someone doesn’t mean you must give your soul to them. You do not have to give up who you are and what you know is right for you”. A very simple thought but I think that is a major lesson and a reason I have had so many bad relationships in life because I took from that (and other) childhood experiences that loving someone meant I had to give them whatever they wanted even if it killed my soul. This experience was almost like a gentle soul-fragment retrieval and I thank the crystal for this.