Nemia
I don't drink and don't do anything else, but I think I use sleep deprivation as a kind of mind-altering thing. I have insomnia problems and don't really do anything about it - actually I enjoy being awake at night. And I could probably look at my tarot collection and find with ease the decks that I bought in daylight while I was wide awake, and those that I bought when I got caught up in weird desires in the middle of the night...
But I let go the decks that I can't work with, and with most of them, I get some kind of working relationship.
My worst enemy when half awake is competionism, is there such a thing? I say to myself: I have three decks about saints already, and the fourth would complete my collection!, and then I buy it! what for???? Okay I might study them all one day when I have the time and leisure to do so, whenever that will be... but in the middle of the night, horror vacui grabs me and I have to complete my sub-collections :-(((((
But I let go the decks that I can't work with, and with most of them, I get some kind of working relationship.
My worst enemy when half awake is competionism, is there such a thing? I say to myself: I have three decks about saints already, and the fourth would complete my collection!, and then I buy it! what for???? Okay I might study them all one day when I have the time and leisure to do so, whenever that will be... but in the middle of the night, horror vacui grabs me and I have to complete my sub-collections :-(((((