I think this might be it, right? We always worry about our kids and a lot of times the fear is irrational. Like you worry that they could be snatched by a band of baby snatching thieves whenever they take their bike down the street. (This is from my personal experience.) But you know what I mean?
This is definitely one, fear I have, and not hearing from my kid in a week, yeah I was worried, this trip was a vacation it was to a huge party, so yeah as a mom, where there is drinking involved, very worried.
I also think the Page of Cups maybe signally to you that you do have a fear of understanding your emotions and feelings. You are very quick to dismiss suggestions, while on the other hand you can relate to them..... You don't want to look into that cup and see yourself staring back at you. Based on your responses to other people's ideas, I think you are afraid of looking a little deeper and finding a truth. Are you a self-reflective person? Are you afraid of being self-reflective? it takes courage to be truly self-reflective because we have to confront unsavory truths sometimes.
I am quick to dismiss, when something is not relevant or relating, I didn't dismiss everything. I knew what I was looking for in what was being suggested. I was looking for more in depth / deeper fear, something that I wasn't aware of. Doing Shadow work. I'm not afraid or fear doing shadow work, looking deep into myself, I'm a very self-reflective person, maybe too much. and I am on the hunt of unsavory truths. I'm looking for them and hunting them down. lol
ETA: sorry I missed a question here in this quote that you mentioned.
I am actually very in tune to my emotions, and feelings, too much so though.
For instance, you never even listed your child or children in your keyword response. Why? You have a child. Pages symbolize children.
I didn't mention my child in my list of keywords, cause the questions where related to me, not my kid.
And these are just suggestions. I'm only going on your 5 or 6 posts in this thread that I've seen (i've never read any other posts by you). If it doesn't resonate with you then it doesn't. I'm just throwing out things from a different angle to get your going in the direction of your own personal truth.
no it's all good, it's what I want, help hunt, it's all good. I want more personal truths, it's the point. of me doing shadow work.