SilkyRaven8
Hello there,
I'm fairly new to this community, and am really enjoying being a part of it.
I just wanted to ask for some advice re: ways that I can move forward with some past oppressive issues that are really bothering me at the moment. Basically, when I was a teenager I got sucked into going to a large, Pentecostal church, as I was seeking answers. I was at that church for some years, and then, left, as I knew it just wasn't right for me, and I didn't believe in the oppressive nature of much of what was taught. It was constantly repeated that anything other than Jesus was the devil, basically, and that the devil was someone who was out to trick us. They were the kind of church who sent gay people to be "made straight", and who told women to "stay in their place".
Now, many years on from that experience, I have a strong bond to the art of Tarot, and always feel so inspired and encouraged when I do a reading. I feel grounded, loved, connected to..like The Universe is there and is telling me everything will be OK. But, somehow, still deep within my mind, these intrusive thoughts come up that tell me I am going to burn in hell for reading tarot.
In the last 12 months I have done some tarot readings in exchange for a small fee. I consider myself a with "baby" with tarot, however, I feel an instant connection to them, and people have told me that my readings have been very good. Tarot has been a part of my life since I was very young, as my mother did readings, and her step-mother taught her.
I just desperately want to figure out how to blank these thoughts, because, right now, I really want to start going to markets and doing readings there, sort of like busking (charging $5 for a quick reading, for example), but these thoughts are really hammering me. My heart says that I can help people through readings, I can be encouraging to them, but my head says that Tarot is the work of the devil (Which I absolutely know is not true).
I know the thoughts are quite complex, as I was technically quite brainwashed by this church, yet I got out. I never had a problem with the teachings of Jesus, in fact, I really feel a connection to His spirit, I just don't want anything to do with the type of Christians who oppress others. I love reading tarot, and honestly feel like it's part of my purpose on this planet...and then, come the thoughts. The destructive thoughts.
Any advice, suggestions, what have you, so much appreciated.
Blessed be! xoxo
I'm fairly new to this community, and am really enjoying being a part of it.
I just wanted to ask for some advice re: ways that I can move forward with some past oppressive issues that are really bothering me at the moment. Basically, when I was a teenager I got sucked into going to a large, Pentecostal church, as I was seeking answers. I was at that church for some years, and then, left, as I knew it just wasn't right for me, and I didn't believe in the oppressive nature of much of what was taught. It was constantly repeated that anything other than Jesus was the devil, basically, and that the devil was someone who was out to trick us. They were the kind of church who sent gay people to be "made straight", and who told women to "stay in their place".
Now, many years on from that experience, I have a strong bond to the art of Tarot, and always feel so inspired and encouraged when I do a reading. I feel grounded, loved, connected to..like The Universe is there and is telling me everything will be OK. But, somehow, still deep within my mind, these intrusive thoughts come up that tell me I am going to burn in hell for reading tarot.
In the last 12 months I have done some tarot readings in exchange for a small fee. I consider myself a with "baby" with tarot, however, I feel an instant connection to them, and people have told me that my readings have been very good. Tarot has been a part of my life since I was very young, as my mother did readings, and her step-mother taught her.
I just desperately want to figure out how to blank these thoughts, because, right now, I really want to start going to markets and doing readings there, sort of like busking (charging $5 for a quick reading, for example), but these thoughts are really hammering me. My heart says that I can help people through readings, I can be encouraging to them, but my head says that Tarot is the work of the devil (Which I absolutely know is not true).
I know the thoughts are quite complex, as I was technically quite brainwashed by this church, yet I got out. I never had a problem with the teachings of Jesus, in fact, I really feel a connection to His spirit, I just don't want anything to do with the type of Christians who oppress others. I love reading tarot, and honestly feel like it's part of my purpose on this planet...and then, come the thoughts. The destructive thoughts.
Any advice, suggestions, what have you, so much appreciated.
Blessed be! xoxo