Beebs_94
First off, I would like to thank you for taking the time to cast a chart for my situation! Secondly, you have an amazing talent! So heres my feedback! Just to let you know, I know a bit of the basics when it comes to Astrology but i'll point something out if I dont understand...
I do believe that emotions could be clouding my judgement and skewing my view of this situation between T and I. There is tension over the decision that I've made, I know that when I do voice my decision, depending on whether or not it works out, I know it would piss off alot of people around me. Knowing that it would piss people off and just voicing my opinion to T is causing me considerable stress. There are alot of thing that I need to think about fully before making the final decision when it comes to both of us. As one of my friends put it, there's too much history between us to start from scratch ya know?
That makes me think that he knows what kind of relationship he wants. He doesnt know what I want, so i assume to him, he sees things clealy...
I'm actually a bit confused by that, could you explain it a bit further?
No, I agree with that one, I find it very hard to pinpoint his priorities and it causes me alot of stress sometimes. Well its good to know that "we" are part of his plans, but I wonder what he's hiding. Also, could you please explain what the Lord 12 is?
Yes, there has been hurt in the past. I'm hesitant to fully give myself to him again, its going to take time i guess....
I completely agree with what you said....i've been doing that and its reassuring to know that I'm sorta on the right path!!!!!!!
but this is offset by it being oriental (the wrong side of the Sun) and it's combust - both of these suggest that you don't see things clearly at the moment (or at least emotion may well cloud your judgement). Venus also squares the Ascendant, in one sense your significator aspecting the Ascendant is a good sign, but the square suggests some tension over this decision. Saturn is also conjunct the Ascendant, though in Libra it does have exaltation. The decision is not going to be an easy one by any means but you should be OK as long as you reflect carefully on the decision.
I do believe that emotions could be clouding my judgement and skewing my view of this situation between T and I. There is tension over the decision that I've made, I know that when I do voice my decision, depending on whether or not it works out, I know it would piss off alot of people around me. Knowing that it would piss people off and just voicing my opinion to T is causing me considerable stress. There are alot of thing that I need to think about fully before making the final decision when it comes to both of us. As one of my friends put it, there's too much history between us to start from scratch ya know?
He is Mars, in Gemini and placed in the ninth House. Mars in Gemini only has dignity by Face - about as weak as it could be without being a debility. The position in the ninth is not as strong as being angular, though it is not by any means a bad position. Mars is also fast and direct and also oriental, though in the case of a superior planet that's a stronger position to be in. Mars is also free from combustion, so he's not only well placed to make his move now, he sees things quite clearly (from his point of view).
That makes me think that he knows what kind of relationship he wants. He doesnt know what I want, so i assume to him, he sees things clealy...
The only aspect Mars makes is a conjunction to the South Node - which is usually seen as unfortunate. The lack of an aspect between Venus and Mars, is not a good sign, if you were seeking the relationship but as it's him, that's not something that would suggest nothing will come of it.
I'm actually a bit confused by that, could you explain it a bit further?
His priorities are not so easy to identify - Mars in Gemini is ruled by Mercury and amongst other things Mercury is Lord 12, an accidental malefic. Mars is in the trilicity of Saturn which rules the fourth and fifth Houses - settling down and having children (or at least a romance) - Finally Mars is in the Terms of Venus - you! and, as said above, it's own Face. So you and himself are part of his 'plans'. Most of this seems as expected, but as the twelfth signifies the hidden or the behind the scenes, as Lord 12 shows his many priority, there's something that he's not saying or showing.
No, I agree with that one, I find it very hard to pinpoint his priorities and it causes me alot of stress sometimes. Well its good to know that "we" are part of his plans, but I wonder what he's hiding. Also, could you please explain what the Lord 12 is?
Venus is in none of the dignities of Mars, indeed it's in Mars' Fall. You don't really like him, or at the very best you're feeling quite vulnerable in these circumstances. Although you don't explicitly say so, you are afraid of being hurt here - though to be honest the question and background suggest this.
Yes, there has been hurt in the past. I'm hesitant to fully give myself to him again, its going to take time i guess....
On this chart, I would suggest that at the very best you should not rush in to anything and indeed if you do have misgivings I'd say you should keep your distance, at least till you're very sure of his motives.
I completely agree with what you said....i've been doing that and its reassuring to know that I'm sorta on the right path!!!!!!!