Kiti von Absinthe
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(WARNING - mildly disturbing content... I'll be as gentle as possible)
Last night, I had a far-too-realistic dream and awoke crying. It wasn't a lucid dream, but it was so vivid that I had a hard time believing that it was only a dream. There were several dreams all wrapped into one long, continuous one. Each part was different problems I've had in my life through the years, some of which contained very explicit imagery and sensitive subject matter (some things which I doubt I'd be allowed to discuss here).
Does it mean anything specifically to wake up crying? I'm talking full-on, emotional breakdown, soaked pillow, remnants of makeup smeared all over my face, uncontrollable sobbing. I couldn't even stop once I was fully awake.
Everything I dreamt was a spot-on re-enactment from actual situations I've been through. Some things I remember from the dream(s) are:
-Watching my best friend get killed
-Sexual abuse (numerous times and at different ages)
-My cat choking to death
-Physical abuse (getting shot, being stuck with different objects, etc.)
-Being hit by a car on my bike
-Being in a "should-have-died" car accident
-My mother nearly dying in our front yard
-Almost drowning in the lake where I've spent my childhood summers
Anyone have the slightest clue as to what any of this means? I didn't do anything differently yesterday than I normally do. I ate and drank normally, didn't watch anything disturbing on TV, no drugs or alcohol, no new or strenuous activity, wasn't over-tired or exhausted, no new medications or change in health condition...
If you need to ask further questions, please do. I'm willing to discuss any details I can remember as long as you're prepared for what you might hear. This isn't first time this has happened, and I'm sure it won't be the last. I'd like to figure this out so that I can either stop the dreams, or just gain some sort of closure. It's been plaguing me very heavily all day. I'm going absolutely bonkers here
Any input is welcomed and very appreciated.
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(WARNING - mildly disturbing content... I'll be as gentle as possible)
Last night, I had a far-too-realistic dream and awoke crying. It wasn't a lucid dream, but it was so vivid that I had a hard time believing that it was only a dream. There were several dreams all wrapped into one long, continuous one. Each part was different problems I've had in my life through the years, some of which contained very explicit imagery and sensitive subject matter (some things which I doubt I'd be allowed to discuss here).
Does it mean anything specifically to wake up crying? I'm talking full-on, emotional breakdown, soaked pillow, remnants of makeup smeared all over my face, uncontrollable sobbing. I couldn't even stop once I was fully awake.
Everything I dreamt was a spot-on re-enactment from actual situations I've been through. Some things I remember from the dream(s) are:
-Watching my best friend get killed
-Sexual abuse (numerous times and at different ages)
-My cat choking to death
-Physical abuse (getting shot, being stuck with different objects, etc.)
-Being hit by a car on my bike
-Being in a "should-have-died" car accident
-My mother nearly dying in our front yard
-Almost drowning in the lake where I've spent my childhood summers
Anyone have the slightest clue as to what any of this means? I didn't do anything differently yesterday than I normally do. I ate and drank normally, didn't watch anything disturbing on TV, no drugs or alcohol, no new or strenuous activity, wasn't over-tired or exhausted, no new medications or change in health condition...
If you need to ask further questions, please do. I'm willing to discuss any details I can remember as long as you're prepared for what you might hear. This isn't first time this has happened, and I'm sure it won't be the last. I'd like to figure this out so that I can either stop the dreams, or just gain some sort of closure. It's been plaguing me very heavily all day. I'm going absolutely bonkers here
Any input is welcomed and very appreciated.