Pollux
It just seems that the most common mood is depression these days. WHEN THE HELL IS SATURN LETTING GO OF ME!
I don't know what I'm writing, forgive me. I'm so down just because... it's as if I'm kissing esoteric and spiritual goodbye.
I feel strained and jaded... I feel void. And I have no clear idea why, so PLEASE do tell me yours (quite AMBITIOUS!).
As many inside here (didn't know that, and was a nice sursprise!) I'm fairly young and unexperienced, while certain family "patterns" and situations had me "sleep" for a long long long time... These days I've definitively dropped Catholicism...
And it doesn't come over as painful and hard as it is for me.
I'm afraid I'm losing it all, I'm losing hold of what I once felt and wanted. It's so weird and embarassing to explain.
I feel... isolated, standing no chance to enter in contact with the planet, with Natura, with the Mother...
In addition, I'm suffering a weird astrological combination, so want your opinion:
in my Birth Chart, Saturn/Pluto conjunction is in junction with the 12th house cusp (my rising is Scorpio), while my Sun/Mars conj is with my 8th (containing NorthNode and being in Gemini/Cancer).
My fear is the expression of a loss - happening in THIS life - of powers and knowledges that belonged to me but in the PAST, in past lives, and that will be discarded because I don't manage to take care of them.
These years Pluto/Saturn opposition was a backstab in general, and especially because many of the project and desires I had regarding esoteric matter have gone in smoke...
In addition, the only place I can see the word GODDESS (may I be forgiven for the abuse) is the InterNet! And SOME (few) books.
Help me fix that, please.
I don't know what I'm writing, forgive me. I'm so down just because... it's as if I'm kissing esoteric and spiritual goodbye.
I feel strained and jaded... I feel void. And I have no clear idea why, so PLEASE do tell me yours (quite AMBITIOUS!).
As many inside here (didn't know that, and was a nice sursprise!) I'm fairly young and unexperienced, while certain family "patterns" and situations had me "sleep" for a long long long time... These days I've definitively dropped Catholicism...
And it doesn't come over as painful and hard as it is for me.
I'm afraid I'm losing it all, I'm losing hold of what I once felt and wanted. It's so weird and embarassing to explain.
I feel... isolated, standing no chance to enter in contact with the planet, with Natura, with the Mother...
In addition, I'm suffering a weird astrological combination, so want your opinion:
in my Birth Chart, Saturn/Pluto conjunction is in junction with the 12th house cusp (my rising is Scorpio), while my Sun/Mars conj is with my 8th (containing NorthNode and being in Gemini/Cancer).
My fear is the expression of a loss - happening in THIS life - of powers and knowledges that belonged to me but in the PAST, in past lives, and that will be discarded because I don't manage to take care of them.
These years Pluto/Saturn opposition was a backstab in general, and especially because many of the project and desires I had regarding esoteric matter have gone in smoke...
In addition, the only place I can see the word GODDESS (may I be forgiven for the abuse) is the InterNet! And SOME (few) books.
Help me fix that, please.