DarkElectric said:
Thanks celticnoodle,
((((((((celticnoodle))))))))
It hurts a lot, and I wonder if the Merc-ret had to do with this, seeing as it concerns old issues; He kept using something from 2 years ago as his excuse to be obnoxious. He actually became emotionally abusive, and you know, not tolerating abusive persons is an old issue for me, so I immediately told him goodbye when he became disrespectful and mean. His true colours were shown.
I'm so sorry for your loss, DarkElectric, {{{hugs hugs hugs}}}. You've had quite a go with this Mercury Rx, *sigh*.
Alas, I don't think the Mercury Rx can be construed as being responsible for your break-up, other than perhaps activating what was already promised in the Chart. That 'Chart' would be a Chart set-up for the time you and your boyfriend began your 'exclusive' relationship.
Usually, in such a Chart, we would look at the 7th House of Marriage, but in your case, it sounds like yours was an 'unbonded' relationship, so we would look at the 5th House of love affairs instead.
Since the 4th house from any House tells the tale as the 'End of the Matter', you would look at the 8th House to tell how your unbonded relationship will end... 5th House beginning, 6, 7, 8th House ending.
If it was a Marriage, represented by the 7th House, the 'End of the Matter' 10th House would be the House to look at as to how the Marriage will end... 7th House beginning, 8, 9, 10th House ending.
You would set-up this Chart for the day you guys decided you were exclusive to one another. Check what was going on, especially in regards to the 5th House, then check the 8th House to see in what way the relationship would end. You might just find that Mercury activates that 8th House of endings.
Of course, all this leads one down the rabbit-hole that is Astrology, *lol*. You could very well Progress both your Natal Charts to the day you became exclusive to each other to see what and where each of you were at when beginning this journey together.
As well, you could set-up a 'Composite Chart', (a Chart that blends both your Natal Charts into one), for the day you began your journey together. This will also give some insight as to the relationship itself, the 5th House of beginning, to the 8th House of ending.
You could then take the 'Composite Chart' and Progress it to the day you ended your relationship and see what's what there.
All will give little clues and insights regarding your relationship.
Alas, all Retrogrades have inherent in their scheme the adage of going back to 'try, try again'. You may not find that it's 'OVER over', but may want to go back and try again once the Mercury Rx goes direct on Sept 12th and out of 'Storm' on the 17th.
Take good care of yourself, lass... you've been under a lot of pressure of late. If you can manage it, baths are a good way to not only relax, but soak away some of that negative energy and send it down the drain. Epsom Salts baths are notoriously good for this... the salts really soak that negative energy up.
Fragrance helps to... incense might be a good thing to keep burning right now.
Also, if you're into flower remedies, such as Bach, they would also be a good thing to imbibe. They can usually be found at your local health-food store.