I will write my feedback.
First I will start to say that yes P and I were a couple. It was the most intense, passion, love/hate relationship I ever felt. He swept me off my feet.
I was hesitant at first, but he wooed me deeply with his words.
We are not that young, I will be 32 this week and he is 30 and we ended our relationship Spring of this year.
He asked me to marry him several times and 3 days before he proposed he left me abruptly. I kept saying no to his proposal but I said no because I felt it was too soon and we had no money.
He met another girl, much younger than me about 22/23 who was wealthier and instead he asked her for marriage. This left me shocked and betrayed. But I realize now that he was very into money, more than I ever realized and was much more practical than I. I was devastated, so much pain from his decision to break it off. I was more of the idealistic type, romantic but he was so in the rush to marry. I still don't know why he was so in the rush to marry, maybe it was a pressure from his conservative family.
The automatic writing resonates a lot. See, even though he is very into money, he had nothing to offer me. He had no job (stable job he did not have, he was a musician) and still lived with his parents. But I didn't care, I loved him regardless. There were a lot of things he kept hidden from me. He kept writing to this young girl behind my back for some weeks, he met her through Facebook. So I felt a little stupid in the end.
And yes we come from different backgrounds. He is Italian and I am American but was living in Europe for several years.
Thing is I have a feeling he may not feel he is good enough for me or now I am starting to think perhaps he thinks he deserves better, I am at odds with this belief. He always complained about money and he always said he can't give me what I want. The truth is that I didn't care if he couldn't afford to buy me jewelry or things like that.
Even when we were together I just felt he was a little immature while I was the more emotionally evolved.
I am not sure what kind of job he has. Do you get the sense he is doing okay in his life? I can picture him over working and working crazy hours. He can abandon his health to work!
To be honest, I am at peace with our breakup. I understand now.
I also feel he won't contact me. And I am okay with that. I have a birthday next week and I don't think he will even write.
Yes there is a guy who is currently in my life. But he has issues. I do love him but our relationship is pretty hard.
I am interested in him but he lives in the UK currently and I am not sure if I am going back to Europe.
I know he is interested in me, but he is so practical that it may be a turn off.
His initial is A. A is deeply insecure and not romantic. He sends me mixed messages. Like he interested in me then acts as if he is not. He is weird but we go way back, 7 years. He is always there in the background of my life. But he is important man.
This reading was very accurate I must say. It was very deep and detailed.
Is there any way to figure out how he feels about me? Is he indifferent? He comes to my mind once in a while.
Funny thing is I once went through 2-3 weeks without him popping in to my head and all of a sudden I had 2 dreams of him. I wonder if he dreams about me too.
Thank You so much. So many emotions are running through me.
I appreciate it so much.